Tuesday, May 4, 2010
fuc
thank you friend(s), laugh all you want.
it's not like i have the best luck in the world for my career.
i don't have an older sister to bring me into a job that pays so much to do nothing.
i don't have acquaintances that offer me freelance to do newsletters.
i don't have the luck to have my internship company offer me a position back in their company.
fuck, i even lost out to somebody whom i know i can do so much better against and got the
extra spot.
it's not like i need recognition; i just want to let myself know i am worthy enough, but i haven't been given the opportunity or the right to.
what the fuck are you doing above, Daddy? you are supposed to be looking out for the best for me. sigh, i'm sorry. i know you've blessed me with as much as you can already. it's just not my luck to be blessed enough for the best. what am i even talking about. scratch that out. not my luck to be even blessed enough for the better.
this makes me worried for my future. i believe i am capable for performance, but it's just me seeing it. especially in an industry like this, this makes me so worried. hooray.