Thursday, May 20, 2010
gettingalong.
aiya i wish everyone on earth would stfu and get along srzly.this week has been rather emotional (or emotionless, should i say?) for me.
i'll touch on it hopefully soon; i kindof want a fragment of it somewhere i can look back upon and reflect.
Saturday, May 15, 2010
whut up gangsta.
"it's not like a give a flying fuck about all this fetching flips."eh?
it has a nice ring to it, all the fs. :D
Sunday, May 9, 2010
hellohoney
instead of trying to fall asleep, here i am; youtubing insects fighting one another and devouring little critters like fishes, chicks and rats; whilst eating my leftover tub of ben&jerry's cookie dough.who needs jobs when you're living life like this.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
palmread.
i went down to chinatown with the very intention of getting my moles removed. i even transfered a hundred dollars from my savings over into my expenditure account just for it. i had planned to get a reading from a fortune teller before doing anything abrupt, better safe than sorry. i saw him and he was first attending to 3 other students, but a sign of customers is a more than decent sign. i went about and came back to him for a reading, and i got more than i ever bargained for. he advised me strictly, not to remove my moles and that it was inevitable that my lifeline was short unless i get to work and pray to the gods or sommat.i listened intently to what he had to offer, but treating everything with a pinch of salt. i accepted the fact that he mentioned i was going to die young without much alarm. But he seemed sincerely interested in helping me avoid this calamity. I mean, if he was some flamer trying to earn money, he would have quoted me a ridiculous sum of money for one amulet, but he didn't. i sincerely don't feel like he's out on a limb to cheat my money cause he only accepted 10 bucks for my reading. he came off as sincere and genuine and most of all, concerned. but my issue is that i have doubts giving faith to something i haven't heard of at all off the bat. i left the session feeling rather different and refreshed, almost renewed from a handshake.
he's taught me to appreciate myself, though his lecture was short and direct; but the thing is, should i go ahead with what he's proposed?
eta: i realised that it all stems from fear. the very fact that i'm considering taking up his offer also stems from fear, be it whether his intentions are good or not. i'm so human.
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
i miss a full family.
Daddy, Mummy and I were on the bus just now, discussing something when you were brought into the picture. You should have seen her eyes light up when she mentioned your name. You left us too early.fuc
thank you friend(s), laugh all you want.it's not like i have the best luck in the world for my career.
i don't have an older sister to bring me into a job that pays so much to do nothing.
i don't have acquaintances that offer me freelance to do newsletters.
i don't have the luck to have my internship company offer me a position back in their company.
fuck, i even lost out to somebody whom i know i can do so much better against and got the extra spot.
it's not like i need recognition; i just want to let myself know i am worthy enough, but i haven't been given the opportunity or the right to.
what the fuck are you doing above, Daddy? you are supposed to be looking out for the best for me. sigh, i'm sorry. i know you've blessed me with as much as you can already. it's just not my luck to be blessed enough for the best. what am i even talking about. scratch that out. not my luck to be even blessed enough for the better.
this makes me worried for my future. i believe i am capable for performance, but it's just me seeing it. especially in an industry like this, this makes me so worried. hooray.
Monday, May 3, 2010
homebound and shuttings.
the lack of funds refuses the rights for me to leave the house.sorry eric, you have been refused as well. :D try again soon.
"i feel like putting on a happy pink dress today."
